I Lost My Mom

By: Kathleen Blandin

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It’s inevitable. Parents die someday, somehow and in someway and you know this growing up; you’ve pondered the painful thought, but then you abruptly tuck those thoughts away saying, “but that’s not something to think about right now.”

You shake your head, you change channels in your mind to something more ‘happy’ and you move on with your day. You see friends write posts about missing their parents, grandparents, siblings or even friends and you think, “wow….I don’t even know how I could deal.”  Well truth is…you don’t deal well. 

It was a Thursday night, just like any other Thursday night where NOTHING extraordinary happened. It was another day in the life of lounging on the couch, binging shows on the DVR until you fell asleep, only to drag yourself up to bed, set your alarm for work the next morning, and do it all over again. 

I got a phone call from my mom that night. It was a routine phone call. It was the usual I love you’s and small talk before she went into work the night shift. The phone call was shorter than usual, she was running late for work, banter between my fiancé and myself and her laughing. “I love you….have a good night at work…,” standard of conversation. Nothing out of the ordinary. 

Little did I know that that would be the last time I ever heard, talked, communicated, saw a phone call with her name pop up on my phone….ever again. 

My mom had an asthma attack at work. The asthma attack was so profound that it caused cardiac arrest. When help arrived on scene she was found without a pulse, given CPR and shocked to get her heart in rhythm. 

Five days of intensive care in Boston changed everything I knew of my life. Tests and procedures done in hopes to save my mom as she lay with a ventilator; fully sedated and paralyzed with medication to help bring her back to us.  Unknown.jpeg

Within five days, my best friend-my one true and closest friend in the entire world was ripped out of my life. 

Somethings you really do take for granted. Somethings in life are so unpredictable and so, so disbelief causing that you just look at life and go how is this real?! How is this really the life I live right now? How is this not a nightmare? How is there so many more hours, days, years left to live without someone that means so much to you?

 

With the holidays now upon us, I write this brief and condensed traumatic journey that is my life to make you think, to make you realize; life really is too short. Life is really too fragile. Hold the ones you love close, never forget to tell them you love them. Never make an excuse to not go the extra mile because you never know when the last time will be the actual last time to see a loved one. 


8 thoughts on “I Lost My Mom

  1. Wow, what a powerful, painful, beautifully written tribute to your mom! You are an amazing writer, with a beautiful soul and tender heart. She is so proud of you, as am I! Keep her alive always anyway you can! I love you, Katie, and I pray for your peace.

  2. Beautiful Katie…..😢
    Auntie loves you… your mom is very proud of you and your writings…
    She will always be next to your heart..

  3. Dear Kathleen,

    I am very sorry for your loss. Losing a parent, especially one with whom we have an amazing bond, is painful beyond words. We do not want to think about it even in the dimmest horizon of our conscious thought, but it is something we all inevitably go through. As you said, all we can do is cherish the time we have with our loved ones.

    I hope those memories help you tide over this difficult time. She lives on through you, always in your heart, mind, and words. She is watching over you and proud of the person you have become.

    Love, hugs, and prayers,
    Tanvi

  4. That is beautifully written Katie! You have always been an amazing loving daughter and mom is so proud of you. Keep those dear beautiful memories close. Mom, your angel is watching over you now and keeping you close to her heart. Hoping you find some peace. Xoxo Love you! ❤

  5. Katie that was beautiful it made me cry as i was reading .Only to realized that would be the last time we would talk forever we talked that nite for 44min 58 seconds n she said i was making her late for work. I miss her laughing and crying and she was my only friend that i told everything too i miss her so much
    Just remember you kids and your father were her greatest loves no one willl ever forget her she was too special of a person we love you linda blandin n will you miss you forever 🙏🙏💋😭💕

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